Wednesday, December 17, 2008

I...am blessed?

I am blessed…and I don’t understand it. Tremendously blessed. Unbelievably blessed. Remarkably blessed. Disturbingly blessed. Sickeningly blessed. Do I deserve it? The question makes me ill for I know the answer. Not in the slightest. Not in the least. I am broken. I am pained. I am sinful. I am strained. I am prideful. I am lustful. I am greedy. I am stingy. I am boastful. I am weak. I am stubborn, and yet….I am blessed.

Why?! How can this be? It must be mistaken. It has to be blessings misplaced. Despite what I’m told, it can’t be just grace. I have children, a wife. I have cars and a home. I have a job, friends, and success in tough times. When others struggle, I await a bonus. When others worry about losing everything, I complain about my extra car having trouble. I see businesses closing and yet I can sell. I see children unhealthy and marriages fail. Mine thrive. Every day I wait in anticipation for a realization of this grave mistake. It can’t be meant for me. When will it end? When will the charade be over and the laughter at my expense begin. I prepare myself for the correction.

If these blessings are indeed meant for me, well that’s a whole other problem. How do you expect me to handle such gifts!? I don’t deserve it! I am broken! I am pained! I am sinful! I am strained! I am prideful! I am lustful! I am greedy! I am stingy! I am boastful! I am weak! I am stubborn! I am…Forgiven. I am Thankful. I am Blessed.

Monday, December 01, 2008

Long time no blog.

Well, it's been a LONG time since I've written a blog. I could blame my schedule, or something else, but admittedly, I've just been blogthargic. Just a few updates, work is crazy, crazy busy, which is AWESOME! Things are going well there. Our family has been sick over the entire Thanksgiving holiday. Joel even ran 104.7 at one point and had to go to urgent care. Our van broke down again, which could be a blog in itself. Let's just leave it at, it's a Ford (backwards it spells Driver Returns On Foot) and we're just about done with it. It's only saving grace might be that we got bad gas, but if it's something else, like a fuel pump, well then this will give you an idea of my intentions.

The boys are doing great overall. Gabe is still doing well in school and Noah is a great big brother to Joel who refers to him as Wowah. Noah has continued to amaze us with his wit and humor. They are far ahead of his age. He visited his Nana recently by himself (first time any of them have stayed away for a weekend) and he was in the car with Nana waiting on one of his cousins, Samuel to get something out of the house. Samuel, who is at the clumsy stage, goes to enter the house and smacks himself in the face with the door. Noah doesn't miss a beat, busts out laughing and says, "Nana, did you see what Samuel just did...he went BAM and hit himself in the head with the door." as he continues to laugh out loud. Samuel even stopped crying because Noah was making everybody laugh, including him. Then, the other night, we were all at the dinner table and Kelly told Noah, who was refusing to stay seated, "Noah, stop getting up, you haven't touched your food!" Noah, then sits down...puts his index finger on top of his chicken and says, "I'm touching it Mommy." and laughs. Yes, he's a little punk.

Other big news, Kelly turns 30 on December 13th!! We are planning a party for her on the 12th. Fondue fun! The 13th is also a big event that I encourage anyone with small kids to come too. It's Movies in the Park at Tekesta park. Classic Christmas cartoons played on big screens outside with free hot chocolate and cookies for all!! It's pretty cool. So, I'm planning Kelly's party and that event. It's a busy, but fun, fun month!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Gabe's Scarecrow Homework

Gabe had homework. The family had to help him decorate, name and write a story about a scarecrow! Here's our finished project! We had fun!



Samuel the Scarecrow

There once was a scarecrow named Samuel that scared all the crows away. He loved his job! He really liked living in the farmyard. His friends lived in the other yard and Samuel really wanted to play with them but they were stuck in the ground and couldn't move. At night when everyone was asleep all the scarecrows would get off their poles and go play. The End!

Written by Gabe & Noah Conrad 10/22/08.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

For NOAH!

I thought in honor of Noah turning FOUR years old this week; I'd take the time to blog about NOAH! Here's a picture of him on his Birthday (10/14/08) helping me frost the cupcakes...well...actually eating the frosting. It's the best part!



I don't know where the time has gone. Just seems like yesterday he was born and now he's FOUR! Well, I am really blessed & thankful for my Noah! He is so very entertaining! You never know what will come out of his mouth! You know the kid...that waits for the worst time EVER to tell your friends..."My mommy farted in the car!" You jokingly say...that Noah will say anything...hoping they believe you! The past few weeks, he's been on a soccer team. I wouldn't say Noah plays soccer because he doesn't. Maybe for a minute or two and then decides it's a lot of work to run and he is done! It's been very entertaining to watch 3-4 year olds play soccer and to think that kids that age can get it! Well, not Noah, but it's sure been fun trying to figure out ways to get him to play for a few seconds. He's coming around with two games left! HA! Sports just may not be his thing but it's been entertaining!


Noah is also a very hands on child. He thought he would finger paint on the computer, keyboard & printer with TOOTHPASTE. Also, after applying red lipstick to his cheeks and fingers thought my carpet would look better RED than tan...he rubbed his fingers in the carpet.(Red was not his color) Another time after watching Mommy clean out the tub he decided the carpet was dirty and had a blast making designs with Soft Scrub in the carpet. (Daddy was called home with this incident!) My favorite is when he was almost 2 years old...we had blue sand in the sandbox outside and Noah decided his diaper was wet and took it off. He was only wearing the diaper and a cowboy scarf so when he took off the diaper...he was naked with except the red scarf & blue sand all over his body! It's the funniest picture! Obviously won't post that one! Oh, sweet Noah! You are such a little explorer!

There is also such a wonderful sweet side to him. He constantly follows me around the house with his Thomas sleeping bag and Farmyard Tales book(by USBOURNE...great book!) asking me to read to him. (He says it's MY favorite book...but it's really his!) He likes to sit right beside you (well actually it's on top of you) and read books! I love his laid back personality! He is very easy going and sweet natured. He loves to help! He likes to unload the silverware from the dishwasher and when I go to the grocery store...he's the first out the door telling me he'll help bring them inside! So it's been 4 years since God blessed us with this ball of energy and I am so thankful! There is never a dull moment with him and I look forward to all the other entertaining things ahead! (I am a little nervous & scared though!) My little pumpkin, I love you very much!

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Warning...Warning...

So just want to inform you to NOT, I repeat NOT go the Southeastern Urology! As most of you know, I had a bladder sling and hysterectomy in July. While in the hospital, I was never seen by the urologist (Dr. Tran). I am only informed by my OB/GYN that he actually did perform the procedure. I had issues from him not visiting me in the hospital such as the nurses trying to send me home for the weekend with a cathetor and Jonathan & I calling the on-call urologist to get it removed. Next, he failed to send me home with antibiotics so of course two weeks post partum...I end up with the WORST EVER urinary tract infection. During those two weeks however I had called the office several times asking if I should have been given the antibiotics and the staff would never return my call. I called three times! Finally leave a message one night for the on-call urologist and he tells me to come in first thing in the morning that sounds like I do have an infection. UGH! I go to the office for the infection (with all three boys & have to WAIT forever) and get sent home finally with medicine and told to come back in a month. So...a month goes by and I am still having a little burning and getting up several times at night to go to the bathroom. I ask about that and am told that I still have white cells in my urine which could explain that but that Dr. Tran would like to run a culture and make sure. I am told that if I don't get a call in two days to please call his office. So, I leave the office without antibiotics and await a call. Two days later, I call! Two messages later I get a call back that the culture isn't back yet. Life goes on and I forget...I remember on Thursday of the next week, so I call and leave a message. Friday, I call and leave a message! Monday...I'm very annoyed! I beg the receptionist to help me find out the results. It's been almost 2 weeks and still no answer. She apologizes and leaves an email for Dr. Tran's nurse (apparantly she checks the email faster). Still no return call. I call again on Tuesday, TWO WEEKS LATER!!!! I get the same receptionist and she promises me she will get "Jennifer" on the phone. She does and I am told that she tried to call me at my home number twice. WHAT!? I haven't had that number in three years! Every time I have been in the office I have been given a sheet to look over and every time everything has been correct. Besides that the 10 times I have left messages I would tell her my correct phone number to call me back. The one time she returned my call it was on my cell. I told her that there is no excuse! She then proceeds to tell me that the culture did grow THREE organisms but she couldn't tell me if indeed I had an infection or not. Whatever antibiotic Dr. Tran gave me on 9/16 probably had taken care of it! WHAT!?! At this time, I am about to lose my short temper! I inform her I was not given any medicine and the symptoms were now worse. All she could tell me is that I would have to come back in and give them another urine sample so they could run another culture! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I simply tell her no thank you and hang up! I am not about to wait another two weeks!

I then make an appointment with my primary care physician for the next morning. He listens and tells me if there is still white cells in my urine I probably still have the infection and will prescribe me an antibiotic. He will then run a culture and if I need a different antibiotic, he will call me one in! I did still have white cells in my urine and am currently on CIPRO.

So all this venting to say...don't go to that office! Please also pray this infection finally goes away. It hasn't gotten better yet and I been on the Rx a few days so we'll see!

Thursday, October 02, 2008

New Decorations?

The other night I asked Gabe & Noah to get ready for a bath while I put Joel to bed. I was walking back from Joel's room and heard lots and lots of laughter coming from the bathroom. I get in there to see both boys, NAKED and hanging from the towel racks. Noah was on the towel rack on the wall and Gabe was right beside him hanging from the one in the shower. I couldn't help myself so I just stood there and laughed. Gabe's response was, "Mom, we're wall decorations!" I did run and get my cell phone to take a picture however I can't post due to nudity! HA! So if you need new wall decorations, just hang your kids on things....just be sure they are dressed.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

These are the days of my life...

So it always seems that when Jonathan is out of town...things happen to make me go nuts. This week has been no exception.
Jonathan left Sunday to fly to California for the week. Monday afternoon I am informed that our check (which should have been deposited at 12:01am) had not been deposited. WHAT?!? I spent money thinking it had been electronically deposited like it always is and well...it wasn't. The company Gina uses deleted our payroll and we were not going to be paid until Wednesday. Needless to say it's been a nightmare. The bank was kind enough to delete half the charges and the Hallams are paying the other ones since it wasn't our fault but what a mess it's been! We ended up with 6 $35 overdraft charges! Wow does that add up!

Tuesday...I go to my follow up appointment at the Urologist to find out the reason I am still going to the bathroom a lot is b/c I may still have an infection. He ordered a culture because my white cell count was still high. Should know tomorrow if I will be put on antibiotics again or not. FUN! The other fun thing that happened was after getting the boys out of the bath, I walk into the kitchen to find bubbles all over the kitchen floor....the dishwasher was overflowing! UGH!!!

Wednesday...Besides starting to get a cold the day seems pretty normal. I go to MOPS at Killearn Methodist and then we all go to the boys soccer practices. It was 3am when I am awakened to some odd noises coming from Joel's room. He had thrown up all over his crib and had to have a bath. When I finally get back to bed after cleaning up everything...I turned my head just right and pulled my neck. OUCH! Which brings us to Thursday...

Thursday...I normally drive Gabe to school (just the two of us) and I wait on the playground for the bell to ring and then he gives me a hug and goes to his class. Well b/c Jonathan is gone...everyone has to go which is a little stressful. This means everyone has to get dressed and have eaten before we leave. However since Joel had thrown up...I didn't want him around all the kids so we had to drop Gabe off (which he wasn't very happy about). We then get to spend over an hour at the pediatrician's for Joel's well visit. He gets two shots along with not feeling well and pretty much sleeps the rest of the day. Typical Thursday we host a small group at our house but since Joel was sick...we had to cancel so...I had to call everyone to let them know we wouldn't be having it.

Thank goodness my boys have been great this week and for chocolate! HA! I am quite thankful that Jonathan will be home in a few hours and I can finally rest! WHEW! Being a Mommy sure is fun!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Classic Noah

Noah has a great personality. He's just a funny guy and always has something up his sleeve. The other day he was at church with a babysitter while Kelly was in a meeting. He asked the babysitter if they could go outside. She was new and had Joel and another little guy named Gavin. So, she explained that she didn't feel comfortable with that and that it was best to just stay inside for now. A few minutes later he took his compass over to her and started showing it off, etc. He then said, “do you see my compass?” and she said she did. He pushed it closer to her face and asked if she knew what it said. She said she had no idea, but he could tell her, so he immediately responded with a witty “it says YOU SHOULD TO TAKE ME OUTSIDE!” She busted out laughing, which of course meant that he continued to come to her with a different approach to the same problem. Classic.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Fay


Here is a picture of our yard when we arrived home tonight curteousy of Fay! We went to Panama City for a wedding and came home to some yard work. It will have to stop raining for more than 5 minutes for us to clean all that up! Glad it wasn't anything major!!

Monday, August 18, 2008

Gabe's 1st Day of School


Gabe had a good 1st day! He got a little scared on the bus but when he saw our neighbor get on he was better. The only other thing he told me before running off to the neighbors to play is that the twins from his preschool class were there too. I guess no news is good news!


Here he is standing outside his room!

Monday, August 04, 2008

The Heart of a Child

Lately, I've had a similar conversation in different situations. It's the kind that you eventually realize is God working on you; Growing you, pruning you or teaching you. Recently, I had a discussion with a friend about faith. The topic seemed to go straight into the common question of "Why does God allow suffering." In any conversation on this topic no answer is good enough and is always dismissed as a "nice response." You just can't convince anyone about a loving God when they ask this question. They are already committed to the fact that He is a harsh, unloving, uncaring God and "life" proves it. If He even exists that is. At the same time, my Pastor has been going through a sermon series on Job. A book focused on bad things happening to a good and holy man.

Tonight, I ate dinner at a friends house with a huge group of all of our friends. When I got there, the door was opened by a friend I hadn't seen in a very long time. Jay and Joanna Mitchell (Jay was the Student Pastor at Canopy Roads when we first joined nine years ago) were in town visiting. It was great to see them and their family. After we ate dinner, Jay told all of us how God has called him to plant a church in Greensboro, NC. This is very exciting and I know, just hearing him speak that he and Joanna are destined to do big things for God. It was inspiring. My son Gabriel sat listening to Jay's story. He was being great and just playing silently while Jay spoke. I had no idea he was listening. Jay began to speak about the struggles and pains that have come with the decision to start a church. It's a reality that I found both scary and refreshing. Scary that, yet again, God has allowed serious struggles for a true follower of Christ (starting a church no less), but refreshing in Jay and Joanna's unbelievable attitude of faith in God's plan. I was inspired. But not ready for the conversation on the ride home.

Gabriel apparently was listening VERY intently the whole time. When Jay was speaking, he had mentioned that one of their struggles was needing to find a house and not knowing how they will sell their current house, etc. Gabriel leaned in and whispered "do they need a home?" I responded, rather dismissively, "They're just looking for one, buddy." On the way home, Gabriel wanted much more clarification. WAY more than I expected. He asked me again about Jay and Joanna's home. "Daddy, that man that was talking...does he not have a home?" "Yes, he does, buddy." I said. "He's just moving and following God. He's starting a new church and needs a new home. He needs us to pray and he needs money to do God's will. It costs money to start a church." Again, I thought that took care of it. Then from the back of the car came a very sincere sounding, "Daddy." "Yeah, pal," I said. "I'm confused about three things." "What do you mean," I asked. "One, (yes, he counted them out) I don't understand why tree limbs fall on people, like when you were camping." (Explanation...I went camping one time and had a "widow maker" limb fall two feet from my head as I slept. This disturbed Gabe.) Two, I want our city to be good. And three, why didn't that man have a home?" Confusion central for me..."What?" I said again. "What do you mean?" He then went on the clarify and I kid you not..."I just don't know why bad things happen. I don't want people to get hurt (at this point he started tearing up and his voice started shaking). Why does that man not have a house and I just want my city to be good." I was floored. It was one of those..."did my child just become a philosopher all of the sudden" moments. He was talking about suffering and why bad things happen to good people.

Yet again, I was faced with a conversation about suffering, but this time, it was with my five year old son who is struggling to understand life, pain and even death. His next statement was even more deep. "Daddy, I don't know why people have to get hurt and die." I said, "Well, buddy, sometimes things happen and sometimes people get hurt, but we just have to keep living and keep helping people and just be happy. We can't worry about stuff like that. You don't have to worry about that. Okay?" I said. He still continued, still upset, "Like my great, great Granddad. I wish he didn't die. I wanted to see him." he says. (I mentioned my Grandfather a month ago and Gabriel wanted to know where he was. I had told him that he had passed away. That's the last we spoke of it until tonight.) Then he truly starts to cry, though trying hard not too. "I don't like it when people are hurt and die. I don't want you to die, or mommy and I don't want to die." Noah chimed in at this point "Or MOMMY!!" he said in agreement. Gabe continued, "I just want everyone to be good and not have anything bad happen and not die." I was truly amazed at his empathy (realize that all of this came from his serious concern over Jay and Joanna's home situation) and I began to realize the degree in which he was becoming aware and fearful of realities of life. Specifically, that pain and death happens to everyone. Again, I just reassured him that we're okay and even if bad things happen, we just need to stay strong and help each other and other people (what can you tell him?????). I just kept telling him that he doesn't need to worry about that. "God says not to worry," I told him.

Later, as I was putting this wonderful, innocent five year old to bed, I worried about his little mind racing with thoughts of suffering and I was saddened. I don't have an answer. I just don't. Then he rescued me in a way that I couldn't for him. He was chatting as he got into bed. This is his favorite time to bring up "heavy" conversations. But, this time, it didn't feel like he just wanted to stay up. Again, he asked about Jay's home. I said, "He's got one, pal. He's going to start a church and needs us to pray and needs some money for the chruch. That's all." I then turned out the light and in the darkness, without hesitation, I heard him say, "Daddy, we should pray for him now." "You're right..." and before I could say anything else, he prayed his own prayer for Jay and Joanna. He asked for them to find a home, to be safe and to have "all they need to make a church." I'm very proud of him and I have learned more from him tonight than any intellectual conversation. Just pray with your heart and the innocence of a child and let God worry about the why.

Friday, August 01, 2008

9th Anniversary present

Jonathan wrote me this for our 9th anniversary! I wanted to share!

Just the Beginning

We have a story, you and I.
A book to be written, a sonnet to be sung.
Evidence of our destiny to be one.

When we met, our dates never included roses and fine dining, and not even as much as the occasional flirt.
Instead we spent our time, at age 5, playing tag and sitting in the dirt.

I often wonder and delve into memory,
And I think the answer is yes, even then, I knew what you would mean to me?

In that time of celery sticks, games and freeze tag winning,
Who was to know that it was just the beginning?

It was forever apart, it seemed, before we were found.
Middle School was our new playground.
Tough times for me and good ones for you.
And yet, our friendship somehow stayed true.

I think it was your touch, your smile and your face.
A good conversation every morning, in the same place.
I don’t think you know how you left my head spinning.
And somehow I knew it was just the beginning.

Again I left you for another two years.
I had to get away from all of the fears.
I had no idea that when I saw you again
It would be in a whole new way, so much more than a friend.

It started very slowly, an occasional glance your way.
But then by tenth grade, I thought of you every moment of the day.

Again, it was your touch, your smile and your face.
But most of all, a good conversation after lunch, everyday in the same place.

I remember the day that I realized the truth.
I was so in love, and in your hands was my fate.
Yet, I was too good of a friend for you to date.
And so I impatiently decided to wait.

For three more wonderful years we grew closer as friends.
For those same terrible years I had to hear of your boyfriends’ sins.

I wanted so much to hurt anyone who put tears on your face.
Yet, I was glad that you came to me for hard conversations in a safe place.

Time went on and not to take credit or say that “I won,”
But our love and life together, had just begun.

In college you were finally ready to roll the friendship dice.
I have to thank some of your friends for giving you that advice.
On New Years Day, Nineteen Ninety-Eight,
My dream finally came true and we began to date.

There are no words to describe my emotions that night
I woke my sister to tell her “I kissed Kelly Argenbright.”
It sounds so funny, but it’s true.
I was astonished, amazed, scared and excited about a future with you.

Here we were, just barely twenty, and all our hopes on each other we were pinning. And yes, it was only the beginning.

Nine years have now gone by since you became my wife.
What we’ve experienced in that time could fill a life.

The first 3 years brought us a home, two degrees, a dog and a child. We were never exactly considered wild.

Year four was rough and not what we expected.
But sometimes God leads you through the desert to give perspective.

Year five was another wonderful year.
We came back home to friends and a community we hold so dear.

The blessings kept coming as we added another son.
Now we had two and this was going to be “fun!”

Years six and seven went by extremely fast.
It’s so hard to believe all of this is in the past.
In year eight we had another boy, who wasn’t so light.
But to our surprise and sadness, to come home safe he would have to fight.

Year nine has not been easy, but what makes it okay,
Is coming home to you and our family each and everyday.
We’ve had new challenges, jobs and choices.
We’ve listened to advice and friendly voices.

We’ve gotten through it together and the future is very bright.
And still I look forward to seeing you each and every night.
After nine years, it’s still your touch, your smile and your face.
But also, a good conversation each night in the same place.

Thank you for being my friend and my wife.
I love you.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Make you laugh...

We have had a lot of visitors the past week. My mom, Jonathan's mom, our nephew Ethan, my sister and her three kids...Justin, Kristen & Sarah. The kids have played long and hard and are exhausted. Today after everyone had left we were left with my kids & I and my nephew Justin. He is going to stay with us a few days to help out and Joel loves him (they share birthdays...15 years apart). He follows Justin everywhere. He was even just sitting in the rocking chair with him...not moving. If you have met Joel...he doesn't sit still. I was talking on the phone and you could hear Joel crawling superman fast across the floor and Justin laughing. Then Gabe added to the laughter. As I get off the phone...Justin says, "Aunt Kelly watch this!" He proceeds to throw a toy across the room and Joel on all fours crawls to get it and brings it back to him. I am thinking...is my child really being treated/acting like a dog? Then Justin says but wait...he acts like he threw the toy and Joel goes crawling away looking for it. I lost it with laughter. As I was laughing, I told Justin to throw the baby the toy. Makes you wonder...are dogs like humans or humans like dogs?


By Kelly

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Surgery Update

Well, I have survived the dreaded surgery. I don't remember a thing! Ha! I remember them giving me some medicine and me asking if I was supposed to feel sleepy and then I woke up in the recovery room telling some guy that "YES! I was in pain!" I was then informed it would take at least 30 minutes for the medicine to work. What a fun way to wake up. As for the hospital stay...I slept a lot....sometimes in the middle of someone talking to me I would randomly fall asleep. If that was you...I apologize. I had nice nurses until the last day when upon being discharged they couldn't decide if I was supposed to be sent home with the Foley catheter or not. So...we went over them and called the urologist on call and got the answer we knew was right. Which was no catheter! So then I just had to pee enough to go home. I kept chugging water just so I could go to the bathroom...which I found ironic since that's I why I had the surgery to begin with. I finally got home around 2pm on Saturday. My mom was at the house with the boys and I enjoyed the entertainment. I started having some pain so I sent Jonathan to get the RX filled. It made me so sick to my stomach and very light-headed. I decided to deal with the pain (which feels the same as giving birth and I handled that w/out pain medicine). Today, however I had this uncontrollable urge to cry. It's been quite amusing to me b/c I am not that sentimental and I hardly ever cry. I cried today because I was in pain, I cried because Jonathan took the boys to church and I really cried when my mom went home. Upon giving birth to the boys I was like....I'm fine...no I don't need anything.... thanks..see ya later and today I was a human waterfall. I've been fine just taking motrin but very very bored! I did go to Target with the family and rode around in their motorized wheelchair. At least I got out! So as for help...Jonathan's mom is coming tomorrow and Tuesday and my nephew will be staying with us Tuesday afternoon through the weekend so I will have help with the boys. If you get bored during the day...you are welcome to come and bring your kids....I would love the company. I do not do well being on "house arrest." If you are bringing us dinner...Thanks so much in advance! We really appreciate it! If you'd like to come and eat it with us...that would be great too. I promise to not fall asleep on you again! Just pray that I will survive "house arrest" and not be too bored out of my mind, we have no more crying issues and the pain stays managable.

Thanks!

Monday, July 21, 2008

And The World Was Never The Same

On this day, twenty-nine years ago, my parents were building a home on Deerpoint Lake, in Panama City, Florida. It was a day well planned. The cement trucks were scheduled to arrive in the morning with 40 yards of concrete for the foundation of their new home. My mother was pregnant and due on the 23rd with their 3rd child. The night before, my father looked at my mother and bravely said, "Joy, all I ask is that you not have the baby tomorrow." This was a big request, not only because she had no realistic control over the situation, but because my father was taking his life in his own hands by making such a suggestion. This pregnancy had not been easy for my mother. It was complicated by the size of the baby and she had spent many a day in the doctor's office being monitored.

Regardless, the trucks were scheduled and it was imperative to get the foundation of their new home laid that day. So again, "Joy, all I ask is...not today." My mother agreed that this day would not be the most desirable time and they went to bed. At 2:00 a.m. on Saturday morning, only 2 hours into the very day they had agreed would be "labor free," my mother's water broke. This child was setting a precedent. However, as any good parent would, my parents refused to give in to the child and my mom sat in full labor as the cement trucks rolled in one after another. Occasionally, my dad would look to his strong, committed wife and ask "are you doing okay?" Her responses were either silence or "I'm fine."

My mother stayed in touch with the hospital personnel, who were not happy that she was on Deerpoint Lake, at least 30 minutes from them. "You have to come in now!" they told her due to the complicated pregnancy. "Don't PUSH!" was another common statement. Finally, around 1:00 p.m., my parents headed to the hospital. The doctor was contacted as he was finishing a game of bowling at Bowlaire. My mother recalls that his first statement when he walked in the hospital room was "I'm glad it's you." This was again in reference to the pregnancy issues.

Finally, at 6:31 p.m. the doctor, using his knee to support the weight, caught a 10 lb. 1 oz. bouncing baby boy! Actually, there was definitely no bouncing. More like the doctor saying "Oh jeeze, my back, somebody take this!" My parents were very surprised. You see, they had two girls and were expecting another. They didn't even have a name for a boy. It was supposed to be Rosemary Elizabeth (shutter). I hadn't heard this part before, but my mother remembers looking up at my father in the delivery room and noticing him tear-up as he looked and realized he had a son. They decided that this baby, being of sound stature and much fat needed a big name. So, my father thought of Jonathan. To continue a family name, they chose Austin after my father's uncle (whom he is named after as well).

So, at 6:31 p.m. on July 21st, 1979, after a story I couldn't have made up, Jonathan Austin Conrad was born to his loving parents, Ted Hiram Conrad and Ina Joy Conrad and two pestering sisters (okay, I love them too) AnnMarie Joy Conrad and Melanie Katherine Conrad. Thus started a really, really wonderful life for me and I thank them all for 29 very cool years.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

6/17/2008



Today has been eventful! Today Joel is officially 11 months old! Sniff! Sniff! (His party will be July 19th @ Maclay! FYI) Gabe went to VBS @ Wildwood and had a blast. When he got in the car he had this HUGE smile on his face and immediately I noticed...HE LOST HIS FIRST TOOTH!!!!! It's been loose for a few weeks and it just fell out today! He was so excited!
I then ask what he learned today and he proceeds to tell me about the story at VBS. He says, "Lot's wife wasn't supposed to look back and she did and she turned in to PEPPER!" (Not Salt or Dust...PEPPER!) At least he got the message that she wasn't supposed to look back! HA! Then at lunch Jonathan tells Noah, to eat his cheese quesadilla. Noah responds, "I don't want my cheese diarrhea." We lost it! I'm laughing still as I type this. First Lot's wife turns to pepper and now we are feeding our boys cheese diarrhea. We go to leave from lunch and Jonathan tells me that yesterday while he was changing a dirty diaper of Joel's, Noah was just chatting away and says, "Spiderman will take care of that poop (add sound effect of web slinging here)." So now, not only does Spiderman fight crime...he fights poop too! What a busy guy! Well...I think that's all the fun stuff I had to share for now. Until next time...

Monday, June 09, 2008

Kelly Surgery???

Just wanted to let those of you know that YES, I will be having surgery next month. I think Jonathan spread the news last night at Men's Group and I felt I should explain that it wasn't a secret! I've been nervous about it & have just put it off in my mind until there was a date. I needed time for it to "sink" in and didn't want a lot of questions. I will be having a vaginal hysterectomy & bladder surgery at the same time. Since Joel was such a large baby, I have a prolapse, bladder & other issues. It was to the point where it was affecting my daily life & felt it's time to be taken care of. I want it done before school starts & my sister has her baby (so I could possibly get a little help from my mom). The dates will be decided by the hospital but look like 7/22 or 7/24. Right now I would love prayer for peace!

Will keep you posted!...

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

The Worst Day EVER!!!

I can not remember any time before we were out numbered (3 to 2) where I had moments feeling I was about to lose it. Unfortunately, it happens from time to time. Well, this past Tuesday was one of "those" days. As Jonathan posted earlier...we've had a rough week. We finally think everyone is doing better when Sunday afternoon, Joel runs a fever of 102. Monday, he is SO fussy, I can barely manage him. I call the pediatrician to make an appointment for Tuesday morning to see what is going on, however Gabe has orientation at Killearn Lakes Elementary at 9am. Well...there were other plans....here's what happened......


Wake up to Joel screaming and covered in poop. Then after cleaning up his bed & him, I went to put stuff in the van and our garbage was all over our yard. (Someone had hit our can and put a huge crack in it and some animal got hungry during the night.) I load the kids and head to the doctor. I noticed there was a lot of traffic that seemed getting worse. So at 8am (when I was supposed to be at the doctor and after sitting on the over pass through 3 lights) I see there is an accident at Raymond Deil. I reschedule the appointment and decide to turn around and just go to the orientation, however the traffic is backed up going the other way all the way past Chick fil a. I end up making a very long trek back and get on Bannerman at 8 :35. Gas light on & Noah has to go potty. We make a brief stop at the Petro and head to the orientation. Luckily Jonathan met me there b/c it was not organized & very overwhelming for us & for Gabe. Finally get home, eat lunch and it's time to head to the doctor AGAIN! At the doctor, I go to get the diaper bag out of the van (when your kid is pooping a lot...you need it) and it's not there. I handle all three at the doctor and with no diaper explosions, we head home with the diagnosis of yet another virus. YEAH! The kids were as tired as I was and they all fall asleep on the way home, I go put all three in their beds and lay down myself to 10 minutes of quiet when Joel is awake again! UGH!!!


The day did get better instead of worse thank goodness! Jonathan made a few calls and called a friend to see if she would take me out for a break! Lisa & I got to go to Olive Garden for a nice quiet dinner & a stop at Books a Million. I am so glad I have such a great husband that knows when his wife needs a break & makes it happen! I am blessed to have a such a great family even though at times...I need a break!

The Shirt That Says It All

Kelly found this shirt and it described our boys so well, she had to get it. She only bought one shirt...just to make it fun (see #1).



Friday, May 02, 2008

Conrad Sanatorium

Medical Status Report: 2nd May, 2008

Gabriel: Temperature of 104
Noah: Busted lip, vomiting
Joel: Black eye, vomiting
Kelly: In need of vacation for mental instability
Jonathan: In need of vacation due to wife's mental instability and thus his safety

As of late, our house has become a hospital (for our children) and mental institution (for us). I believe they use to call these places sanatoriums? Joel (at 9 months) has his first black eye. He decided he didn't want to be in the car seat as he was being buckled and rolled out of it, fell on the floor of the van, hitting Gabe's baseball bat. Not a good moment. Noah followed suit that night by wrestling with Gabe until he fell face first on the hardwood floor, busting his lip and hitting his tooth. Shortly following both, Gabriel developed a 104 temperature. Later THAT night, Kelly and I heard Joel crying (strangely) and went to check on him. He was throwing up...A LOT! As we were cleaning Joel and his bed, Noah wakes up...walks out of his room crying and threw up. Every 10 minutes the rest of the night either Joel or Noah were heaving and Gabriel still had 102+ fever. The next day, they all seemed better...until bed time. After seemingly having gotten over everything, all of them regressed. We put Joel to bed...he threw up. We put Noah to bed...he threw up twice. We put Gabe to bed...got a scream in the middle of the night and he is back to 104. So, at this very moment Gabe has 104, Noah has a busted lip, slight fever and is throwing up and Joel has a black eye, slight fever and is throwing up. Kelly is nearing insanity and I am waiting for any one of them (or all of them) to break down mentally and attack me when I arrive home. Thus, we may be padding the walls in our house soon, if anyone wants to help. Hazard pay will be included.

Update: Kelly is now throwing up and I am officially the last man standing. If you don't hear from me in 48 hours, the battle is lost and I have been committed to the Conrad Sanatorium.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

My Inner Dr. Cox

You know, the funny thing about Dr. Cox (from Scrubs) is that all of us, at some point or another experience a moment where we "re-he-he-he-heally" want to let our inner Dr. Cox out to destroy those around us that annoy us...so...very much. I experienced this on the plane to Chicago last night. Let me tell you that even thinking back on it makes me want to explode with a tirade. The flight to Chicago was around 2.5 hours. I knew I was in trouble the moment these two ladies sat down, across the aisle from each other and began to talk...across the aisle, in front of me. At take off plus 2 hours...it still hadn't stopped, even for a breath. I'm telling you...the food cart came by and they talked OVER IT! OVER IT!!! COME...ON!!!! There was no silence...none. I couldn't sleep through the annoying chatter. I couldn't ignore it as they were right there beside me. During the flight, I finally found myself seeking refuge in my inner Dr. Cox. I was thinking what I would say if I had his freedom of expression. Here is what he was saying.

"Excuse me ladies, but I gotta tell ya that af(laugh)ter 2 hours of listening to you go on and on andonandonandonandon...and ON about how your boss, BOB doesn't appreciate you and how Peter seems to always rely on your help to succeed and how David is just a funny...kinda...guy....I'm seriously considering switching with the gentleman in the emergency exit row...THAT way, when you start talking again...and you will...I can pull the handle and throw myself out the door with the hope enjoying 30,000 feet of silence before I die...but, since I can't do that without probably sucking the two of you out with me...and Lord knows that would ruin the aforementioned silence...since I'm CERTAIN you would still be talking the En..TIRE way to your death...I've decided to just ignore that fasten seat belt light, go into the lavatory and drown myself in the reused, bacteria filled, sludge they call water..."

If only I had the freedom to say it. But, just typing it makes me feel a little better.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

PIZZA

This blog is all about our sweet Joel! He loves food! He will eat ALL DAY LONG! We will feed him dinner and then the rest of us will eat and he wants to eat what we are eating. He no longer wants baby food...he wants the real stuff! With no teeth I was being careful what I gave him, but he will grab it from you! He reminds me of a hungry dog (sorry but he does!) Yesterday, I put some leftover pizza (from lunch) in the garbage to clean up the kitchen and I put Joel in his walker. I went into my room to change my clothes. I was only gone for a few minutes and saw him in the walker at my door with red stuff all over him and the biggest smile. I freaked for a second thinking he was bleeding but upon further examination I noticed the entire slice of pizza in his hand almost demolished. He was a mess! I went to take it from him and he screamed! He had eaten the majority of it anyway so I just let him enjoy the rest. To calm any fears from the pizza being in the garbage...it was sticking out on top of papers b/c the garbage was full and it was only in the garbage probably 5 seconds (you know the rule...5 seconds!) before he grabbed it out! In the past week I have taken leaves, Easter grass and a puzzle piece out of his mouth! When it comes to food or anything he can put in his mouth...it's fair game to Joel! That's one hungry boy! HA!

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Updated: Project Terminated


Updated Official Notice: Original Report Issued (on this forum) June 2007.

Update: As of February 23rd, 2008 the Conrad Experiment in Militia Building by Natural Means has official been terminated. Top Secret equipment used in the creation of Version 1.0 (Code Name "Gabriel"), Version 2.0 (Code Name "Noah"), and Version 3.0 (Code Name "Joel") have been removed and disabled. "Gabriel," "Noah," and "Joel" will continue being trained and monitored for future impact.

Note: At this time, the "Parent" Coordinator (Code Named "Jonathan") is "not thrilled" and "very uncomfortable" with the way in which the project has been terminated. In his final report, he stated, "I am personally very hurt and pained as this project comes to an end. I feel as though something has been taken from me. In this process, I've gone from pain, to simply feeling numb, to wanting to be more numb, then feeling cold and icy and now I just hate the gravity of the situation."

As to the soldiers, Gabriel is concerned and asking many questions as to what has happened to the equipment and why. He has been difficult to please with simple answers and is demanding information to which he is not yet privy. Noah is aware, but unconcerned. However, he continues to stumble on the very location in which the equipment is being protected, to the dismay of project coordinators. Joel is unaware and unconcerned.

End Classified Report.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day from the Conrad Family






Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Few Pictures of Joel

I can't add fun pictures of Gabe & Noah and not add some of Joel too!

Taken today 2/13/08! He's so cute!
Take @ the mission but he wasn't impressed. I even tried bubbles.


My favorite! Joel & I were getting tickets from Gabe & Noah. They were playing police men!




Mission @ San Louis

Here are a few fun pictures from a few weekends ago!



Noah looking at the hole in the roof. He just stood there for a few minutes. It was really funny!










Noah was inside this looking up!










Gabe trying really hard to ring the bell.









Boys in the Friar's house!












Mouse remains after it had been eaten by an owl!








Monday, January 28, 2008

Personal Presidential Debate




Alright...after much thought and review I've decided on Mitt Romney. That is until Chuck Norris finds me and hits me so hard I go back in time and change my vote. This has been one of the most difficult election decisions for me in a while. I liked different things about each candidate and disliked others. However, I came to the decision based on:

-His economic policies and limited taxation
-His healthcare policies
-His belief in smaller government and fiscal constraint
-His experience in both corporate America and government
-His moral standing and social policies

I will admit my concern over his Mormonism, however. Yet, this is my only issue and I feel it is not a major concern. That's my intention. Sorry, Huckabee. You were close, but you had to go and raise taxes, spend tons of money and even accept a few too many gifts. Chuck Norris almost made me forget that stuff, but I can't vote for you (looking over my shoulder...waiting for the roundhouse kick to the face).

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Profoundi-talk

I’m always thinking of things to say or do that are profound and will make my friends and family think, “Wow…that’s deep.” I think you do that too. I think we all do that, especially in the Christian community...and I think it's bad. I’m a relatively young Christian and there are many things that I believe we say (to sound profound) to non-and new believers that are setting them up for disappointment. Other Christians may judge me (another topic for later) for the honesty I’m about to share and they may even question my faith. But this is what I believe we ALL struggle with and we should speak up about it and be honest. Here are some things that we Christians say that I think are just profoundi-talk.

“It’s so nice being a Christian. I just have a peace about everything, because God is in control.”

This is one that I really struggle with and can’t imagine how it impacts non-believers. I’m sorry; I’d love to have a “peace about everything,” but it just isn’t so. Don’t get me wrong. I believe God is in control and I believe things happen for a reason, but that doesn’t give me super human ability to detach myself from the harsh realities of life. I have debilitating fears. I’m sometimes nearly paralyzed at the thought of my sons’ being hurt or killed, my wife’s safety, our health, and our finances. I worry about work, my house, my parents, my sisters, LIFE. Frankly, it bothers me, even as a Christian, to hear the whole “I’m at peace with the world” comment. I’m not at peace. I’m rarely at peace. I have an understanding and will get through things because I have faith in God’s control, but that does not mean I’m at peace with seeing a father of two small children killed in a car accident on his way to work. I can get through it and watch how God uses it, but the last thing I would feel is “peace” about it. Let’s be honest and just say, “Life is hard and sometimes terrible and it really helps to be able to trust that God is in control. It’s not the way He planned the world to be, but I believe He’ll use tragedy to bring good. However, I still worry and struggle. I just TRY my best to give it to God and I do my part to help.”

“I’m not afraid of dying. I’m saved and will be going to heaven.”

Alright, I don’t know if this makes me less faithful or not, but I’m petrified of death. I thought about this on the way to work this morning. I was in traffic in Miami on the expressway and passed by a horrible accident where two people were killed. Right there! Right there in the very spot I’m passing by and the crushed cars were still there. I kept thinking, “I wonder if he was a dad? A husband?” If I had been 30 minutes earlier, it could’ve been me. Morbid thought? Not very “peaceful” thinking? Dang right! Look, I don’t believe that people are totally cool with dying. So stop saying you are. Nobody believes you. My thoughts? I’m scared. I don’t know what to expect. I am a Christian and I do believe that Jesus has taken my sins away. But, if I’m really being honest, I’d say that I’m really worried that I’m missing something. You know that feeling you get when you turn in a test and you’ve gone over it a thousand times, but you still have this terrible feeling that you forgot a section or totally failed a portion? What if I get to heaven and God says, “No…I don’t have a reservation for you. Are you sure you know Christ?” Again, I’m being as honest as I can. I fear this. Also, I think that we should be careful not to claim we know exactly what will happen when we die. We don’t. The bible isn’t crystal clear on everything (“…the dead will rise first.” has always confused me. Aren’t they there already?). I’d much rather hear Christians being honest and saying, “Death is gonna suck. Nobody wants to die. But, I believe that Jesus died so that I could be with God and once I’m in heaven, it’ll be wonderful. But again…not looking forward to the dying part.” It’s kinda like getting a shot when you were a kid. I don’t care how much candy or ice cream I’m getting after the shot…the shot still stinks.

“Oh, just pray that God shows you His plan.”

Look…God is driving this car we call life and we can’t see the road. He has told us the destination and how He wants us to act along the way and even how to interact with others during the trip. But, in terms of the which roads He’s taking, what they look like, whether or not they have pot holes and what the weather’s like…let’s just say He’s not sharing any maps. I have no clue…you hear me…NO CLUE what God has in store for me. I don’t even believe in praying that he show me His plan…cause it ain’t gonna happen. He’s the navigator, pilot and co-pilot. All He lets me see…is the rear view mirror. That’s how I know God was, and is in my life. He shows me the roads I’ve been on and I get to keep guessing on where we’re going next. That’s okay with me. I’m okay with Him driving and I think it’s cool that he reveals to me where I’m at, and where I’ve been to show me just how good a driver He is. I may hate the bumps in the road once in a while, but He’s got it on cruise and we’re making good time. So, let’s be honest with people and just say God likes to navigate and frankly…He hates backseat drivers. So, you’re not gonna know His plan until you see it in the rearview.

The reason for this post is that I have been thinking a lot about Christian straight talk. Just say how you really feel and not how your dad, pastor or priest might say it. Don’t speak in King James and don’t act like you have it all figured out, 'cause I don’t buy it and neither will seekers. Being a Christian doesn’t give you super-human uderstanding of the world, amazing wisdom, keen insight into life and death, or clairvoyance. It doesn’t make us better or smarter than anyone else. The only difference is that we’ve accepted the grace and mercy of Christ, which we need because we are NOT better than anyone else. I would love to hear more Christians tell people, “Listen, I’m terrible. I’m not even close to being what I should be. In fact, I’m probably worse than you are. But, I believe that Jesus was a perfect sacrifice for me and an example for both of us. If you believe that, then together we can try to be better.” It’s that simple.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

New Pictures...

Joel will be turning 6 months old this week (sniff) so I wanted to add a few pictures of him. He is such a sweet baby!





























Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Family Update

Man did 2007 end with a BANG for us. Our front door handle broke...no big deal we used the garage anyway. Well then the garage door broke; the dryer broke and to top off the list... we were rear-ended on Meridian Rd. So we are really looking forward to a better year!

On a updated prayer request...Gabe will no longer be going to preschool. I will be teaching him at home for the rest of the year. A few issues came up in December that really made us stop and think that this school wasn't the best idea! So far it's been the best decision. He's doing great & we have our Gabe back!

Noah had an ear infection from Thanksgiving until the end of December. Was on THREE antibiotics in a month...but is finally better! He's such a sweet boy! He definetly keeps me on my toes. There isn't a day goes bye I don't ask...Where's Noah?

Joel had an ear infection was put on an antibiotic. Didn't clear up the ear or the cold which lead to wheezing on Christmas Day. He was put on another antibiotic and prednasone. He's finally better. He's finally sleeping through the night again! He is such a wonderful baby! He weighed about 15.9 the end of the month! He's doing great!

Jonathan's work is going well. He'll be traveling about once a month for about a week, which is really hard for me but is getting easier each time. He got his first commission check! YIPPIE!

As for me...I'm trying to keep the house cleaned, raise my sweet boys and be the best wife & mother I can!

Hoping for great things in 2008!

Should we try to fix or just listen?

I recently read a book for small group leaders at our church and came across a section that really hit home to me. Here's the text from the book "You can double your class in two years or less." By Josh Hunt.

"We can only fix ourselves. An atmosphere in which we are constantly trying to fix each other will quickly squelch honesty. I do not want a group that is constantly trying to fix me. It does not matter how well-meaning the group is in this. Fixing kills honesty.

I have seen this happen in groups from time and time again. One person will bravely share something that is not working. Someone else will say, "You just need to pray more."Another will tell the person,"Just forgive and forget." ...

If they will hear one another, really listen to the feelings as well as the facts, and bring both together to the Father, the group will find healing. But as long as we are trying to fix each other, God isn't allowed to do much fixing."

In James 5:16 it does not say "Confess your sins, do your best to fix each other."

In different settings, Jonathan and I have recently experienced this where we've asked for prayer and received everything from "Why did you do that?" to "Well, what I do is..." to "Why don't you just..." Granted, many of our friends are our accountability partners. But, there is a very thin line between accountability and judgement. We're guilty of the same thing in our home team and other small groups. It is easy to fall into "helping." This book helped me see that we need to build each other up in Christ not squelch the honesty and make everyone just like ourselves. Please pray for guidance when others ask for prayer! Together God can fix/solve our problems!

Paul and I

14We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!

Romans 7:14-25

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Happy New Year

I haven't written a blog in so long, I though it necessary to at least get back on here and tell all of you Happy New Year. There will be ups and downs this year; successes and failures, joy and stress, monotony and new adventures. Regardless of what this year brings, let us embrace each and every experience. Bring on 2008!

Happy New Year, everyone!!